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Rant - Career Choice/Siblings
rickashay1


I do not understand people's assumption that I shouldn't be a writer because they don't make money. I'd have to be known or famous to make money like that.

My brother said I couldn't do that, I wouldn't make enough money.

It isn't about money it's about the enjoyment I get out of it and the hope that someone else would enjoy reading my work too. Does it matter if I'd never be famous? No...if I get two hundred people to ever read my book, I'd be fine with that. I just want to write.

I'd rather do something I absolutely adore doing than doing something I absolutely hate. I don't understand how they don't understand that.

My mom gets it, my editor/brother gets it too...

But no one else.

My dad wants me to be a lawyer or an engineer.

My brother wants me to have a lot of money and go to college.

My sister thinks that I shouldn't write anyway, because it's a waste of time.

My oldest sister thinks it's cool.

My second oldest sister thinks that I shouldn't do anything like that because I would never be successful in that area. (Like you can measure success with something like writing. Doesn't it depend on how many people you can reach, help, or inspire? Isn't success relative?)

My youngest brother thinks that writing is just a hobby, never amounts to anything and it couldn't possibly fit me.

It does not matter at all if I enjoy it.

No...

Not at all...

And so I am encouraged to either pursue a law degree, a business degree, or the most likely candidate, a communications degree.

Personally, I'd like to get a screenwriting degree, something like that. I'd love to do that. I'd love to go to Africa on a mission's trip, unfortunately that would mean I'd have to take a bit off to go there instead of pursuing a relationship/school...or a job.

I'd like to get a job and take classes. But I'd like to get a job that I enjoy/tolerate instead of simply doing it for money's sake and take classes that inspire me and help me in the future career that I want. So what if I don't use the degree, plenty of people don't use their degrees. I'd love to be inspired during college. Everyone is seems to let it drag on...don't they know that the whole point of college is to discover yourself? To feel and be inspired in your choice of career. It isn't just about meeting people, but let things happen, allow the feel of the world to touch you and to develop opinions and views all your own.

But I couldn't possibly have that because people are stuck labeling me as a black sheep in the family. I don't want success or money, material things, I want to inspire and create.

That's probably why I've always struggled to get along with my siblings but I'm always hanging out with the theater/drama people that actually get the idea that you need to lose yourself in something to create something. Feel the stirring of passion and happiness, joy in something that you know that only you can experience and people can only get a grasp of the feeling behind those precious few words.

I don't understand how you cannot feel that way.

I don't want to be successful...

I want to be me.

And I pity you for not understanding that feeling.


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Awe... *huggles* Perhaps you can satisfy everyone, by going to school & becoming a creative writing teacher? You'd have a steady income to get those that think you should have one to leave you alone about it, plus you can share passion for writing with those who get it! :D

*glomps*

A teacher would be fine but their "low" salary is a big problem. I've also been encouraged to be a teacher by my grandma but they don't want me to settle for that to make her "proud". In a way, I'd take that as a compliment. They think I can accomplish more than just that. But I'd love to talk to people about what they like to do as a writer/actress. I have a lot of friends in theater productions (not major things though, more like small town community stuff.) and it's nice to know someone that understands that "need" to do something creative and spontaneous. They want the best for me, but I'd really, really love to be happy in what I do.

Thank you so much though! I really needed to get my feelings out and heard too. I can't really say "no" to their faces' without getting a disappointed look. I always thought it would be incredible to be a teacher, especially for creative writing or English assignments. I'd love to be able to inspire others and have people actually pay attention to English.

I guess I just needed a bit of rant time. It's just bothering me right now how dismissive they are being. Especially because I know in the coming months I'll have to decide and I don't want to make a mistake. I'm sorry if I'm bothering you or if I sound like I'm whining. I guess I am whining...but it will be all right I think.

I think I'm just overwhelmed.

You're so nice though to say that. :)

*glomps you back*

*sighs* Yeah, but in the end being happy & fulfilled in your job is what makes it a pleasure, rather than a chore. And it's not that bad being a teacher. My Uncle is going to school to be one, my boss' son & daughter-in-law are teachers. He's now the dean of students where he works and he's only been there a few years. (I think they're married for 3 years) But as long as you've got people who support you in that dream, keep dreaming!! *huggles*

You're welcome! Maybe if you stressed how much you want to make a difference in people's lives, they might see it as a better option in life.

It's not a rant & You can't always keep things bottled up inside. *huggles* You're not being a whiny bother, far from it! *huggles*


*Awe... *more huggles*


*blushes* thanks...

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